Been doing so much thinking lately. Mostly about my family, my life, my business. Hailey is a little over 7 months old now and is trying so hard to pull up on things. She gets on her hands and knees and rocks ( the first stages of learning to crawl) and she's so frustrated. She just wants to go and she gets so upset. She doesn't like the jumperoo or the excersaucer right now. She'll play in the floor by herself or with Chey for about 15-20 minutes. The rest of the 3 hours shes up I'm either right there with her or carrying her because she's just not happy. But it's okay. It's not bothering me too much because all I've been able to think about is that in only 5 months she's going to be a year old and not a baby anymore. She's getting so big in my lap and it makes me sad. Honestly, I'm not going to miss getting up at all hours of the night. I' m not going to miss smelling like spit up because it's all over my clothes. I WILL miss being able to hold her in my lap and rocking her. I will miss her laying her head on my shoulder or chest and just resting for a minute (Chey never did this. She was always go, go, go). I'm going to miss being able to hold her on my hip and her holding on with her arm around mine. I'm going to miss that baby smell. I'm sad to see her first year going by so fast. It's cliche, but it seems like just yesterday we were bringing her home from the hospital. My parents told me the older you get, the faster time goes by. Boy were they right. In high school, the days, the weeks, the years just seem to drag on.
We've been asked several times if we're going for the boy. For that 3rd child. I've thought about it and thought about it, and then thought about it some more. And while I would love to be pregnant again and experience childbirth and those first few precious moments when the nurse hands you your new baby, I believe that I'm done. I have 2 beautiful girls that are happy and healthy. I'm ready to go to the next stage where we can take them to the beach, to the mountains, Disney World, etc. I'm ready for the "fun stage." Although I'm sure it will have it's challenges as well. The first year of a baby's life is wonderful. All those "firsts." But its also hard. VERY HARD. Just when you think you got it figured out, everything changes. Just when I get Hailey on a good routine, she decides to cut a tooth, or stay up a bit later before napping. Then just when I get that figured out, something else comes up. It's exhausting. Cheyenne is at such a fun age right now. She can tell me what she wants, asks and answers questions and is pretty easy going. If she skips her nap, its not the end of the world. She just has an early bedtime that night. I like this flexibility. I'm ready for the girls to be able to play together, to share a room like my sister Jenny and I did. We had a cabbage patch bed and we LOVED it. I want to have movie day when it's rainy. William and I can curl up on the couch or in the bed with the girls, watch movies and eat popcorn. I'm ready for this stage. We can take the girls camping or fishing. They can have friends spend the night and have sleep overs.
If the Lord chooses to bless us with a 3rd child, we would be more than happy, but we believe our family is complete. It makes me a little sad but I believe thats what is right for us. I want to really be able to concentrate on my photography and getting my business really going and contribute to my family. Help take some of the pressure off of William. All this thinking has my brain hurting. Ha. I really do feel so lucky to have been blessed with wonderful parents who taught me everything about being a good parent. They've taught me so much and always been there and I hope I can be half the parent to my girls as they were and still are to me. I hope that Cheyenne and I, and Hailey and I can have as good a relationship as I have with my mom. Sometimes you just got to stop and realize and be grateful for what you have because it can be gone so quickly. I guess that's enough rambling. Just feeling pretty good today about life, wanted to share. :)
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