Thursday, December 17, 2009

Feeling Guilty

I'm having a hard time breastfeeding Hailey lately. She wasn't eating at night anymore until this teething thing happened. She is waking 2-3 times a night. When she wakes between 4 and 5 the only way I can get her back to sleep is to feed her. She's not hungry when she wakes at 7, obviously because she just ate. I try to feed her before she goes down for a nap around 8:45 or so but still isn't really hungry. She eats for about 5 minutes. She wakes 30 minutes into her nap and I wonder if she's hungry, so I try to feed her. I don't know how much she's ate and its really screwing everything up! I find myself feeding her whenever she's fussing because I don't know if she's hungry! It's driving me crazy. I stopped nursing Cheyenne around this time and felt guilty because I don't think I tried hard enough to continue. Her not eating regularly is starting to affect my supply and that's a whole other issue. I want so bad to continue until she's a year old, that was my goal. It's so hard, especially with Cheyenne running around. I thought that the hardest part was behind me...feeding every 2-3 hours. She should be eating about every 4 now, but I find myself offering to her every 2. I'm just so tired. I feel so guilty, but on the other hand I think I could be *happier* and not so stressed if I didn't have to do this anymore. I'm just torn. I'm tired of pumping, tired of it all. I want to burn that darn pump.

2 comments:

Four of a Kind said...

don't feel like you have to make it to the one year mark. do what you can. if you feel more comfortable switching to formula, then by all means, do what makes for a happy mama!

Anonymous said...

I know your pain... But you dont have to push your self... If you are done with it then that means Hailey is feeling what you do and she is not wanting to as well. So I would say to go a head and switch to formula and keep up the solids... Keep your head up you have to do what is good for YOU and the baby..

Acie